August 8th, 2004

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I hate being alone

No, I don't want to talk to anyone, touch anyone, or even see anyone. I need to feel presence of human, or even non-human life in the house. As any energy vampire, I can't survive alone. Especially eat alone. I haven't eaten in 24 hours, because I can't eat in the empty kitchen. Tomorrow morning, before work, I will manage it, because I often eat alone in the morning. But I almost never eat alone at night. If I weren't so cheap, I would have gone out - I have no problems with going out alone, and I can eat in a restaurant. I guess I will do what I always do - waiting until 3 am and finally make dinner and eat and then go to bed. But I really, really, really hate being in an empty house. I really, really look forward to going to work tomorrow and being among people again.