The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.
That was amusing and helped calm me down. I have spent the last hour and a half looking at the possible programs of study after I am done with pharmacy school. Call me insane, I have spent the last 16 years of my life as a full-time student, I am guaranteed two more years in this status, I will have the professional degree and be proudly called Dr. L. and yet I am looking for more. I am not yet sure what I want to be when I grow up. I have several options.
- Go and work. Bleh. Walgreen's is OK, but not for the rest of my life.
- Residency, in either drug information or managed care. I could handle that, and it could useful in the future. However, that's not exactly what I want to do in my life.
- Pharmacy Admnistration degree - comes in M.S. or Ph.D. varieties. Of course, if I settle on this option, I will go for Ph.D. Having one doctorate, it's stupid to stay short of one in nother area. However, it doesn't look quite like the area I would like to be in. It's focused more on the management of drug flow on the end-user side rather than the manufacturer/distributor side.
- Fellowship at Rutger's. A good possibilty, one of my preferred ones at the moment, actually.
- Pharmacoeconomics degree - again, either an M.S. or Ph.D. and I would be leaning more towards Ph.D.
- MBA. MBA is a million possibilities in itself. Should it be executive-type MBA after I have worked for a few years (and one can get promoted to pharmacy manager very quickly in retail setting if one is willing to relocate)? Simple MBA? Specially geared for pharmacy MBA offered by some schools? MBA in Marketing or MBA in Management or general MBA? Besides, I have a feeling, that for this degree to be of any value, it should be obtained from a posh university like Harvard. For which, at this stage in life, I have no money. And GPA after pharmacy school is not all that shiny (in the 3.7 range cumulative).
Thus, I am all lost. I have about a year to thihk about it, because I need to start writing out applications in the early fall of 2006. Which won't be easy, as I will be on rotations, and possibly out of town, out of state, and even out of the country.
I don't want to grow up. Can I please shelted from the cruel real world in the safety of thick university walls?